If this heart could heal

As Enya serenades me with her beautiful voice and Celtic instruments
My mind processes thought in French and my heart beats as the wings of a butterfly
"Que ce soit, peut nous être à jamais. Mon amour" is all I can think, it's all I can dream.
Mon âme aspire à l'amour, comme un papillon qui peut être flotté hors de ma portée.Toujours comme des fous Je veux espérer et d'attendre que l'amour pour sauver ma vie ou me prendre à mon décès.
Je suis en attente pour secouer mes paroles et tendre, elle donne ce qu'elle peut, mais seulement pendant un certain temps (c'est compréhensible).
S'il vous plaît m'aimer, s'il vous plaît m'aime toujours.
Mon cœur soupire après toi, mais dis-moi ce ne sera pas.
Quoiqu'il en soit, nous pouvons être à jamais. Mon amour!
Les larmes coulent librement et la lame est aiguisée. S'il vous plaît me sauver mon amour!

Resolutions and all

This is the first day of the New Year...

Last night was hard, so hard.
I did not have my brothers with me,
I did not have my love with me,
I did not even have my friend with me.

The greetings were cold and impersonal,
Sent via BBM Broadcast message.
It did not matter much because the ones that mattered were not with me.

I reminisced on the end of 2010.
The crazy things my brothers and I did,
Firecrackers in the mail box hahaha, all the laughter.

I have resolved that 2012 will be a year of positive energy,
A year of success, a year of forming new bonds.
Of letting go of the pains of the past and accepting the pleasures of the present.

I will be cautious of what I do, where I go and the company I keep.
I will surround myself with uplifting and positive people.

There will be sorrows, I will allow myself to 'feel'
I will continue to heal and I will LIVE!!

Happy New Year!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gone

Unmoved or removed?

Time is wasting, air depleting.

The space growing, times changing and me?

Well I am not moving,

Stagnant, distant, unmoved or removed?

I pray to at least have a memory of all that was,

All that is and all that will be.

Am I unmoved or removed?
Dreaming or awake?
Seeking or being sought?
Lost or found?
Alive or dead?
Together or apart?

No, let us call it erased.

The final straw which broke the camel's back.
The use of an innocent to play guilty tricks on an innocent mind,
Keep moving, keep going, I can see the end
Clearly you're waiting on a friendship to end.

Now why would you be who you are and still want to be who you aren't?
Holding one as a safety net whilst rushing toward danger, hoping against all hope that she takes you solely.
The mention of my name makes you blush and the mention of yours makes me flinch,
There is no you, no me, no us together
Just you and me, we do not belong to each other.

Awake from dreams that make you believe that things are real, when really they are just illusions of a crazed woman. Danger lurks but its not me, I changed my name to Destiny, and here my 'friend' you will never be!

The End.

Say what's real

So today I was in deep thought about nothing, wondering to myself what makes it all worth it.

I cannot go back to the dark place that I was in for the last few months.

Am I selfish or is it self preservation?

To bare one's soul to, 

To open one's heart,

Mind, Body, Spirit.

I can't trust...
Lots of I's in this

O interruptions in my thought patterns,
I'm ready to go.
Not gonna risk it nomore.

I have little to offer and want nothing in return.

Ode to FAREWELL

This is my Ode, my Ode to Farewell.
Said goodbye so many times that it means nothing anymore.
Goodbye to friends, to loves, to lives of those both near and far but worst to family.
Fare thee well bittersweet goodbyes for I will not say them anymore.
Not to friends, to love, to life nor to family.

I will stop, I will not exist in a particular space, I will not rend myself to anytime, to anyone, to anything but I will not say goodbye.

I will move on or stay still but I will not say goodbye. Times will change, people too but yet I will not say goodbye.

No more farewell, no more goodbye only standing still, letting time change and people with it.
Letting it go but not with the utterance of fare thee well.

To be continued...

Too personal or too true

So I made a statement, which did have multiple truths to it though it may have been a bit broad.
Nonetheless, it's my view, idiotic, moronic, low, disrespectful, still my opinion.

As far back as I can recall, though it doesn't look like it much these days, Trinidad and Tobago is still democratic.
Persons are allowed freedom of speech, the right to think for themselves. If I say something that you disagree with, then you are in fact using your right to have your own view, your opinion. This then allows for discourse, your say, my say kinda thing.

To choose to take an opinion and make it personal, to take offense to a statement and bury that offense to the depths of one's soul, well, lets just say that's another kettle of fish. Maybe just maybe you took it too personally   or maybe it's just too true!

I owe no apologies for what was said for one main reason and that reason is I have a right to my opinion!

If you choose to end a friendship over it, that it your choice but always remember it was your choice.

The end and apparently goodbye!